Today a year ago..

This day last year was the hardest day of my life..my sweet little 6 week old baby had open heart surgery...thinking about that day fills me with all kinds of emotions..good and bad.I never could have imagined what a year from that night would be like.I am beyond thankful to GOD for this precious blessing He has filled our lives with, everyday I am more amazed at the love and happiness she brings us!September 1st will always be a special day for us,she was so small yet it was like she knew what was going on and she was so brave!I will NEVER forget anything about that day,the way I felt, the way she looked at us,saying good-bye as they took her away,the smell of the hospital..everything! I will also never forget the wonderful family and friends who came and sat with us,held our hands,supported us,and showed so much love for my sweet little baby girl!We are truely blessed beyond what is deserved!

September 1, 2011

September 1, 2010

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Ok I am going to try this again..since my last post about what we should do...I got pregnant, had a miscarriage, went to Paris , had Harper dedicated at Church, had my first WONDERFUL Mother's Day, and had Harper's 9 month pictures done..alot has gone on!

I believe once you have fertility probelms you alway have fertility problems..with that said now that my monthly friend has returned so to does the question "what do we do"? It took us 5 years to get this little miracle who knows how long it will take again, and if it will even happen again. I am not so brasian to believe we will ever even get pregnant again, we want another child but I am also just so thankful for the one I have. Is it selfish to want another? Am I ready to go through all the worry and waiting each month to see what happens?? I know we say we will just see what happens and thats easy to believe BUT in the back of my mind it never goes away!